“Your cold, cold breath.”

"And when the dream ends
Well, what happens then? 
The dance done
Like death we slowly fall away
And what then?
Empty spaces 
Burnt out places
Where we use to live within each other.

This hallow heart beats shallow breaths
Pounding tenderly the walls within my chest 
That vibrate in hurtful praise for you
And I ache, I ache there is not a place I do not ache
And what then…
Nothing…just nothing?
No wait…
I've died inside and my ashes are scattered by this wind
The wind from your cold, cold, callous breath
The last betrayal…
Now, there is nothing left."

Maritsa...

Walk with me...

"Only I can know my own experience
...Walk with me
I'd love that
But do not trip my step
Or judge my pace.

The love I feel, the hurt I feel are both my own
As yours are yours
Like our faces tell our stories
And our traces mark our tears, our joys
They are reminders that we have felt
And lived, and laughed, and cried...
The tears I never thought would dry

Unbearable things and joyous surprises have touched my heart
So, walk with me...If you dare
I'd love that
But do not trip my step
Or judge my pace

The deepest things of hurt or happiness are felt in equal parts
And time can't be the judge this time
Of how I feel or fall apart
For how do you hold a moment in your hand...
Less it's already been held in your heart."

Maritsa...

You Were My Sunshine, My Warm Drink...

"I will bend and I will breathe
I will not break, no, not at all
I will hold my head up when I speak

Though nothing is clear
Who did you become my dear?
You were my sunshine
You were my warm drink!

I miss the old you so
The one that made me laugh
The one who said he could not let me go
The one that was not here, just for a while
The one that damn you, made me smile
That made me feel safe
The one that said he had my back...?
Where did you go?
...How can you leave, leave me, just like that?

Why did you have to hurt me so?
I need you now
Like I needed you then
How do I even comprehend
the love I felt for you is now at it's end...
It's just made room for your deciet
To show his face, hold my hand and bind my feet

My heart feels cold
Used, battered and old
What could turn this love into hate
I do not undersand
When did you disregard me
Do you even contemplate
The devastation you create deep, so deep within my heart?

For you've moved on to sun filled days
Blue skies and brand new ways
And I hope she showers you with the same love you showed me 
The twisted tales the doe eyes filled with lies
Bitter sweet no hiding from wandering feet
And only time will tell weather you choose heaven or hell

Meanwhile I will survive
I know I will
I've lost greater loves than you before
And here I am still standing...still.
So my heart will forgive you
For in the light now I see
The shallowness you bestow upon me

I have served you well 
Under your dreamy spell
The one you cast upon this tender heart
Through wild seas and calm shores
I could have loved you so much more
I would have loved you till the end...and then

But your darkness brewed and all the anger that was built up in you
From past illusion and an unmended heart
Came out of you like an almighty din
And crushed the house that we lived in

No love no more no trust I wore
Torn and worn down to the last thread....
And my emptiness was fed by you
And every little thing you do
And every tear that falls
Falls because of everything you did not do


Yes...I will bend and I will breathe
But I will not break, no, not at all
I will hold my head up when I speak
There may always be a place for you left in my heart
Even though you tore it apart
For once I've loved I always do
Though this does not mean I have trust, faith or respect in you
No, those you took when you choose to turn your back and go

Though nothing is clear
Who did you become my dear?
I love you, I hate you
You were my sunshine 
My warm drink
You were my best friend...what made me think...?"

Maritsa..

Loving you...

"I am so tired
the days the nights
the endless fights
in my head, in my heart
the burning pain of wrong verses right
the light I lost was the cost of loving you

The hours, days and years all passed fuelled by your taboo
the yes' the no's the I don't knows
the leave me alone's the I need you so's
the silence cuts me like a knife
and my heart splits in two from loving you

Why did you have to go and end this life
it could have been so strong, so bright.

But you bruise and tease
and it is blurred in between
and I am confused from loving you...

And now there is three
how can it be?
when I thought that you were loving me
how deaf and dumb I must be
to not have seen the in between
the web of lies that does surmise
the pain of loving you."

Maritsa...

This Fraction Of a Moment...

"I do not my darling
Understand your mystery
Yet I see you with such clarity
You show me nothing but mere subtleties
Of your light and shade
And yet I see your depth, both dark and bright.

Laugh, cry, whisper and yell
Be free with me
No matter how perfect or perfectly misplaced
I love all your aspects
Give me insight so I can breathe
This fraction of a moment
In the scheme of time seems minuscule
But carries a momentous joy
Though I am tied into a million knots from knowing you
 I am submerge in the love I feel for you.

I am fed by the knowing
A thousand more identical moments grow from that little one inside me
And sustain me…keep me still so I can unravel and keep the flame burning
Till the next time…I exhale…
Now I can breathe….".

Maritsa...

Love Bites...

"Love has got teeth and it bites your heart from the inside….

Scares your soul with tenderness viscously leaving you to deliciously bleed

When the richness of your blood runs dry and the tears of joy cease to fall

You drift, you drift into the dream…till the next time, till the next wave hits

And washes you over, sends you writhing into the oceans abyss

Only to float you tenderly back to shore

Love has got teeth camouflaged by soft lips called desire

My honey to your bee

Your love stings then sooths

Your love hits then caresses

Your love has got teeth and bites me from the inside

All over…

And I shall never be the same again…."

Maritsa...

I Choose...

"I think you are beautiful,

but you are beyond what I think

deeper than I know, wiser than you show...

within you is a path less choosen

...but I choose it, hidden and scared

I choose the uncharted you

the frail and bewidered you

I choose the fragile depths of your soul-scape

to nurture the beauty beyond thought

beyond all shallow wisdom

I commit to this wild uncertain passage 

with compassionate understanding 

rising from the ashes...a new union

as the phoenix, unscathed and unscared."

Maritsa...

Your Body Has Become My Flowerbed...

"Your body has become my flowerbed

Cover me with your petals

Yet not let me not forget your thorns

Your essence becomes my air

And I need you to breathe

Ill surrender in your sweetness, sweet mess

And lay my head to your heart

I hear its beats that become my reasons to forgive

I’ll revel in your sunshine

As you play with my hair

It tangles around you to keep you close, to keep you warm

And we learn to believe in each other

To trust in me like I was lead to trust in you

You may lay your head to my hearts beating

Lull me to sleep, in and out of dreaming

And I will cradle you

As you float me deep into your garden

Then we will both float into mine…

Entwine….

Time to live again

As hearts aches let us go releasing us from the past

To soothe each other.
My body has become your flower bed..."

Maritsa...

"Secrets Of the Rose Garden"......1st Draft...stay tuned!!!

"Imperfection becomes perfection when you look at it with love filled eyes

The imperfections hold one's fragility, one's humility, one's grace, beauty perhaps truth

Cloud your heart with rose water, let yourself drown in what draws you in...Fearlessly!

For it is not your choice to whom you may drown...so let go, surrender is all there is

Consequence, inconsequential.

So listen, the beat of your heart knows no lie...let it whisper sweetly, softly to your ear.

Then let the someone that sees your imperfections, perfectly become your hearts chariot..."

Maritsa...

“When you find the way others will find you. 
Passing by on the road they will be drawn to your door. 
The way that cannot be heard will be echoed in your voice. 
The way that cannot be seen will be reflected in your eyes.”
--Lao-Tzu

Cut the Corners Off the Moon.....

"Cut the corners off the moon so I can dance in her light

A little waltz through the night in memory of you

I will hide under the seventh tree in case you return

Where, no one can see me there but you.

Summer will fade autumn leaves will fall

It will be cold but I shall stay

Spring shall eventually awaken perhaps she will bring you with her

Her flowers shall bloom and cover me

Where, only you will know how to find me there.

Your music will be playing and I will be waiting asleep in dreams of you

Under the seventh tree

Dancing in the moonlight

And when you return my darling will you let me teach you my little waltz?

In the glorious garden I live where dreams of you did catch me

Will you waken my sleeping heart

For in there, there is no space you do not live..."

    Maritsa...     

                                            

"Your life is your message to the world, make it inspiring..." Anon.

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